3 months after starting this journey...

Down 2 lbs!  I'm currently at 188, making my goal of being in the 180's by Christmas.  But I'm not stopping there.  I am planning on kicking it into high gear this week to hopefully lose another pound or so before Friday.  The farther from 190 I am, the better.  I have to say, seeing my ticker say "18 pounds until the new me" really scares me.  Less than 20lbs to go?  Being at goal is scary, even scarier than losing the weight.  Because, what is the point of losing it all if I can't maintain the weight loss? 

That being said, I really don't think 170 is going to end up being my final weight.  I think having two kids by c-section has completely changed my body.  I'm holding onto alot more stomach weight than I have before.  I'll cross that bridge when I come to it, right now my sole focus is gaining the least amount of weight possible over the holidays.

On another note, I'd like to set my next goal.  I am going to Mexico at the beginning of March.  I'd love to be between 170-175 when I leave.  So that is what I will be working at in the New Year, getting bathing suit ready. 

This is me when I first started this journey in September at 212lbs.  The pictures below were taken last week at 190lbs.

Weekly Weigh In

Surprise, Surprise!  I weighed in Monday morning at 190 lbs!  That is 3 lbs down this week.  Can't say I did anything spectacular in order to get such a great number but I'm definitely not going to complain! 

I do have a confession to make.  I was at the mall with the little ones this morning.  We thought we'd grab some lunch and I was marching toward Subway.  I turned slightly to the right and saw a guy eating poutine.  I got one.  Bad, bad me.  Even though I had great intentions, I should not have taken my eyes off the Subway sign.  Lesson learned.  I think I'll be sticking to a salad for dinner tonight and hopefully burning some of the poutine off at the gym tonight.

I am one pound away from being at my goal of the 180's by Xmas.  With over a week left, I'm hoping I can drop a couple of pounds so that my holiday weight gain won't be so shameful and I can be right around 190ish after the holidays.  I don't know about anyone else, but I do not stick to diets during holidays.  I will eat fudge and cookies.  I will have mashed potatoes and gravy.  But I think the most important thing is to just be aware.  Stick to one serving of the potatoes.  Have one piece of fudge.  Try and eat healthy when you can (like at breakfast and lunch) if you know you'll be going a big crazy at dinner.  So that is my motto this year for the holidays, be aware of everything going into my mouth.

PMS sucks

The heading says it all.  What else makes you want to consume the contents of your fridge at 9pm?  Gives you the appetite of a pregnant woman?  The good news is that I think I ate healthy enough yesterday that my handfull of chocolate chips, 2 turkey bites and a bagel shouldn't really affect my week. 

Last night hubby had to help out a family member and didn't get home until 8pm which means I missed my Tuesday night at the gym.  Thank goodness for snow (did I really say that?).  I shoveled this morning and I was sweating by the time I finished so at least I know I got my heartrate up and hopefully burned those chocolate chips off!  The bad news is that we've got a crap load more of snow and my efforts have dissappeared.  I'm going to have to get out there again today and shovel some more.  I thought I was in much better shape that 3 months ago yet my shoulders are killing me from 30 minutes of shoveling this morning.  Maybe this is a great addition to my gym routine!  I have to think positively since there really is no positives to snow in my opinion!  :o)

Monday Weigh In

Down 2 pounds this week bringing me to 193! I am SO close to the 180's! If I continue on the same path, I should be at least 189 by Christmas. I'm using that as my motivation.

I had quite a revelation yesterday. I added my 3rd day per week at the gym a couple of weeks ago. I go Monday mornings and my mom watches the baby. Yesterday it looked like my mom couldn't babysit this morning. I was actually upset that I might miss today's class and I was even contemplating paying the $5 for the daycare. That is a huge change for me. I usually am secretly happy when something comes up and I am unable to go. To WANT to go (as opposed to going because you have to in order to lose weight)is such a transformation in my mindset. Me? One of those people who likes to go to the gym? I can't say I EVER thought I'd be one of those people!

Bah

This week I stayed the same at 195.  The scale was looking good Saturday morning (because there is no way I can ever wait a week to weigh myself) and not so good after the weekend.  I had my family Xmas party on Saturday which equals a ton of food and drink.  Then I had a baby shower lunch to go to on Sunday.  Again, food and more food.  Monday, my mom sent over a ton of leftovers from the Xmas party so I ate those.  No surprise that the scale didn't show a loss but yet, I had 5 great days of eating.  Why do a couple of meals seem to sabotage a good week?  Also, a week that I went 3x to the gym. 

No worries everyone.  I am trudging on.  I've been to the gym twice already this week and have been eating steel cut oats, salad and veggies galore since Tuesday.  I will continue on this journey no matter what the damn scale says.  I'm off to have a salad with some yummy avocado!