Wow. So I've been back to work for a week now. The working part isn't too bad and it would have been an OK week (as good as going back to work can be) except that Ava has been sick since Monday. She has a horrible cold which she got from daycare the week before. I don't think she has ever been this sick. My baby girl who is ALWAYS laughing and smiling and never cries (and I'm not exagerrating) was crying all week. Boy do I symapthize with parents who have a colic child. Ava never cries unless she falls and hurts herself so it's been pretty hard to come home after work and spend 3 hours with a crying child. It's hard on her and on me. Hopefully within the next couple of days she will be back to her old, happy self.

This new stage in my life is really weird. I feel like I am going from the time I wake up to the time I go to bed. I wake up and go to work. Then I come home and feed Ava and ourselves. Then I play with Ava, put her to bed, make my lunch, clean up from dinner, tidy up the house (since it's still up for sale) and go to bed. And squeeze in the gym 3x a week. It is crazy but when I put my head down on the pillow, I feel so satisfied with my life. I don't know what it is. Don't get me wrong, I would give up work in a second to be home. I joked with Fraser tonight that we need to have another baby right now so I can get another year off. I guess I feel since my time is limited with Ava that I really have serious quality time with her. I don't do anything else but spend that 2 hours with her. No laundry, no dishes, no tidying up her toys, nothing. All that stuff waits until after she goes to bed.

Mommies, enjoy your down time now because once you are back at work it doesn't exist!!!!